Wednesday, January 28, 2015

I Don't Drink

I don't drink much alcohol and usually don't like the feeling of being drunk, but today I am making an exception.

As every decent Swede I do have a stash of Swedish snaps in my freezer and I am going through it all, not that it is helping me any - yet. I have already drunk 20 cl and a still not connecting to my feelings - but there is still more in my freezer...

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35 cl and counting and still I don't feel shit all...
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45 cl and I still don't feel anything. Why can't I feel it? The most important man in my life died and still I don't feel anything at all? He loved me no matter what, why can't  I feel anything?

3 comments :

  1. If you are not used to drinking I would stop right now buddy! Be kind to yourself!

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  2. It's part of the process, a kind of internal defense mechanism. You're probably in shock. Please don't beat yourself up over what you do/don't feel; it's important to be kind to yourself, like Apmel above said.

    The emotions will come, in their time, in their way.

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  3. Thank you, my friends, for your kind and considerate words. I only tried it the first night and as it didn't help tear down the wall I haven't and will not continue. I will wait for it to come to me and not force it.

    Big hugs!

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