Misplaced Loyalty

Art by Rene Magritte

For a very long time I have loyally stood alongside another person. In some instances I have fought for this persons causes or defended this person against attacks. I have done so of my own volition and never expected any reward or acknowledgement for it.

However, neither did I expect my loyalty to be disrespected or taken advantage of. It was a sad moment indeed when I realized what had occurred and learned that the same thing had happened repeatedly during the last week.

In hindsight I do not regret my previous actions, but still I cannot help feeling hurt and betrayed.

I Miss Us

I have always been fiercely individual and have rarely been prepared to, or wanted to, adapt to what is expected of togetherness and in relationships. I have guarded my freedom to do whatever I wished whenever I wished to do it and to let no one hold me back. And then Ars happened.

The first eight months of my SecondLife I had successfully fended off all relationships and offers of partnering, I just could not understand how such a thing as a virtual love affair or relationship could ever work, either in the.short run or in the long run. And then Ars happened.

It was actually very strange when I found myself to be so dependent on another man, his moods, his schedules, his wishes. Someone once told me during an argument that I was lucky meeting Ars when I did. I agreed with him and did not think about his statement anymore until after Ars had passed away. I know I asked him at some point then, but I cannot recall his answer - it all happened during the blurriest part of my grieving.

Still, I do agree with the guy. I was lucky in meeting Ars when I did. What we had and what we became together just grew naturally and I never felt it as a limitation or an obstacle, rather the opposite. Ars supported me, lifted me, taught me and guided me. I guess I did something for him also, but I cannot imagine what I did to be showered with such affection and love.

I miss our talks, jokes, discussions and even our quarrels. Ars thought I was too naive and overly kind to everyone and too political. I was upset with him for having given up on the political process altogether and sometimes for working too much and for being a cynic and not taking care of himself. I miss sharing ideas, dreams and thoughts with him.  I miss being loved.

I miss "us", I miss "we" and I miss being a part of "Ars and I".

She Made Me Proud

Art by John Bauer

This evening I listened to a  podcast that I have had difficulty listening to before. but after a long time of fiddling around with the settings of the firewall. I finally got it to work just before the program I wanted to listen to started.

The program was of course "Jändi är arg" (Iendi is angry) on Iendi´s Transistor. I have followed the origins of the discussions that lead up to the radio program, but have not really taken part much.

Iendi was - as always - calm, cool and collected throughout the radio show, however angry she claims to have been it did not shine through in the least during the program. She answered all the personal attacks on her by trolls and drama queens of both sexes and big-busted and small-minded valkyrias.

I am proud to have Iendi Laville as my fiend! Never take their shit to heart, my darling ex-missus for a day!

SL9B

Happy ninth birthday, SecondLife!

For detailed information about the celebration please visit SL9B Community Event (url)

Life is Like a Paper Bag

I was thinking of doing a post today comparing the ruling of the Supreme Court of Sweden in the so called "manga-case" (a criminal case in which the accused´s possession of manga-drawings highlights a conflict between the Swedish Child Pornography Act and the fundamental rights of free speech and free thought) with the nervousness and unease surrounding "child avatars" in SecondLife.

After I had started working on the post I realized it would be too long and take too much time and energy on the first day of my vacation, so I chucked the idea.

Instead I will send a greeting to my buddy the albeit heterosexually challenged but still fabulous and multi-talented blogger, philosopher, fashionista, cartoonist, author, enfant terrible etc., etc. Apmel Goosson of Solace Island..

In a blog post today, Apmel tells us he has more and more come to view SecondLife as playing with a doll house, and those are something one outgrows. I would therefor like to dedicate these two quotes to my bosom buddy.

"Life is like a paper bag, empty and devoid of meaning if you do not fill it"
Hans Alfredsson (1921-), Swedish comedian and philosopher

"A SecondLife without Apmel? Unthinkable!"
The Much Honored Bock McMillan (2007-), laird of Southern Charm and prince of Cascade Falls

Vacation

Today I start my vacation, a couple of glorious summer weeks with loads of rest and recreation.

I am not going away - not much - because I have some "self-management" and housekeeping to take care of in first life. I moved to this apartment not too long before Ars passed away so everything came to a complete stand still then and haven´t moved much since. A couple of home improvement projects also need to be resumed and finished, one at a time.

Of course there will also be the 2012 Second Pride Festival in SecondLife to cover, for my own and my readers pleasure. The festival this year is between Friday June 22 - Friday July 6, two weeks of fun and involvement.

So with sleep ins, a leisurely pace in my projects and as few night out on the town I hope to have a satisfying summer vacation at home.

Reminder - Black & White Auction Party Sunday

This is a fundraiser for the upcoming Second Pride Festival 2012. Please bring your wallet!

The party starts Sunday June 17, 2012, 6 PM SLT

For further information and landmark please visit Blithe SL Magazine; Black & White Auction.