A Unilateral Action

Today I have been in SecondLife 2,667 days or, expressed in another way, 7 years 2 months and 18 days.

I would like to think that I have friendly relations with most of the people I have encountered during those many years, some are still close, others I meet sporadically but for various reasons our paths have mostly parted, some have more or less or altogether left SecondLife and some I don't have contact with even if they are still around. But those that we are friends with or have amicable relations with are never the problem, are they?

The relationships that drain my energy, and that I have been thinking much about the last two weeks, are the failed ones. Those relationships that have to some degree turned into open or concealed enmity. I find that it weighs down on me and makes me weary to keep track of the perceived wrongdoings and insults. It has also to some degree turned into an unwanted bitterness on my part that I do not at all care for.

So today I am going to clean the slate by unilaterally forgiving those I feel have wronged me - or someone I love - intentionally or through carelessness, so that I thereby in time can forget the perceived insults and abuses. I am also asking those whom I know feel that I have wronged them for forgiveness. I am going to unblock all those that have previously been blocked from Instant Messaging me in-world or from entering my home sim or on social media sites.

I know that this action will most likely be labeled as "drama" by some, but I don't care one iota because I am doing it for my own sake not anyone else's. My forgiveness is in no manner dependent on the their willingness to forgive me.

As I do not believe a sweeping apology is enough I am going to name each and every one of those I believe deserve my forgiveness and whose forgiveness I need for my words and actions in the past. I will not go into my reasons for feeling hurt by those named, except in one particular case.

I forgive you, Ars Northmead, for dying and leaving me alone and heartbroken for such a long time. I also ask your forgiveness for resenting you for something you could not help. You know I love you, babe, and I know you loved me. Forgiving you was and is always easy.

I forgive you, Andrey Messmer (a. k. a. D R E Y Messmer), and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Martial Eisenhart, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Butch Horton, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Vanadis Falconer, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Sjöfn Stoneshield, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Kynlif Leikfang, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Loo Berensohn, and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, PetGirl Bergman (a.k.a. Tina Dahl), and ask for your forgiveness.

I forgive you, Alessia Kranfel (a.k.a. Vesper Kling and Mera Kranfel) and ask for your forgiveness.

Lastly I forgive myself.
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The deed is done and now the rest of my life can start afresh. It is a big relief! 

DJ Ralphie @ Camelot

I am too tired to write much about Ralphie's set at Camelot, but it was fun! Mostly because of all the Instant Message sessions I was in with old and brand new friends.

Spanki, I and Drew

Christo sexing it up for a dark and mysterious stranger....

My new found friend Dodo (to the right) and a companion
show their pride with saggy pants. Great underwear guys!

Trin Almodovar 

Trin Almodovar showing off his skills

My brother Martial

When I Met My Brother

As I was checking out the Second Pride sims this morning I suddenly ran into my brother Martial Eisenhart, who was there for the same reason. And that was not a figure of speech because I did literally run into this immense man with bulging muscles when turning a corner.

If he had not worn his name-tag I definitely wouldn't have recognized him as he used to be a tall and very slim avatar. He tells me the reason his avatar has developed this bulkiness is that every time he leaves he drops his avatar off at a gym and sometimes it has taken awhile for him to return... so this is what developed.

It was a joyous coincidence because we haven't seen or been in touch with each other for quite a while. We made the most of it and talked for a long while, catching up with what had happened in each others first and Second lives.

I can still remember a time when being without Martial was totally unthinkable for me, but then again at that time there were others whom I thought of as fixtures in my life that would always be there also and we would never part.

Martial dropped out of SecondLife for a long awhile due to first life issues. We have not reconnected in the same way since, but I will always love him and be grateful to him for the wonderful times we shared.

No Seduction & No Demonstration

This evening I logged into SecondLife with two options in mind, either to let myself be seduced by Ziggy Starsmith or to join Kandinsky Beaumont and Apmel Goosson in a demonstration at Burn against their oppressive rules and their terrible treatment of Kandinsky..

Well, as it turned out none of the three were inworld so I had to make alternative plans. 

I decided to go to my friends Vampi Twine-DeSantis-McMillan-McMillan´s (honorary) and my Sergeant-at Arms sirhc DeSantis-McMillan´s club OrmDricka instead. The theme was black!

The Magic Garden was filled with good friends and I also hauled my brother Martial Eisenhart over with his new perky mesh-ass.

We had a blast with a lot of fun 70´s music (which was better than I imagined it could be)! That goes to show, you can have a good time even if things don´t work out as you planned.

Four Years Ago

"Family Gathering" by Haakon Meads

This picture was taken by Haakon Meads on Saturday October 12, 2008, at 06:35:54 AM SLT and shows (from left to right) Haakon Meads, Martial Eisenhart (in the tree), Guyke Lundquist, Ars Northmead and myself on the back deck of Ars´s and my home at Southern Charm. I must have been to a themed party the night before and was too lazy to change out of the outfit.

The rug must´ve only had four poses so ingenious Martial planted a tree on the deck to get a good seat. Did we have ground sits in our AO´s (Animation Overrides) those days? I cannot remember...

Martial was gracious enough to give it to me when we talked last time. I should have it my Inventory somewhere, but have not been able to find it.

I still remember the evening well and am amazed at how long ago it is even if it still feels so close. So much has changed and so much is still the same. Good memories help us maintain stability in a forever changing world.

Reconnecting With Family

Well, believe it or not, this huge, hot, scary, rough and sexy-as-hell looking man is actually my long lost brother in SecondLife.

Ladies and germs, it is with great pleasure I introduce you to  the one and only Martial Eisenhart.

Besides being one of the kindest souls I have met in both lives he is also crazy, intelligent, fierce and loving.

If you had poked me when I saw his name highlighted on my friends-list I would have lost my balance completely and ended up on the floor.

After only a few seconds hesitation I sent him an Instant Message telling him how happy I was to see him inworld again. As is Martial´s habit since he first came to SecondLife he was  AFK and did not respond right away.

A few minutes later I heard from him and we talked for almost an hour, trying to do the impossible of catching up instantly. We were not successful but there will be more chances in the future.

This encounter with my brother made my day and I was very happy when I logged off.

The Concept of Family in SecondLife

From a sociological and/or anthropological perspective a family is a group of people who are affiliated by marriage, consanguinity, affinity or co-residence. Families are formed as a source of mutual love and support within the group concerned. Sexual relations among family members are regulated by rules concerning incest such as the incest taboo.

In a virtual world we don´t need to focus on consanguineous relationships as sexual relationships cannot end with an independent issue. All relationships are created by choice through affinity and affections and are either romantic or non-romantic.

The Family Chart. Muted colors mean that the avatar is (mostly) no longer around
Yellow circles signify partnerships/marriages, red circles previous partnerships/marriages and yellow arrows mutually elected non-romatic relationships of a family kind (sister/brother or child/mother or father)

In the beginning there was Ars Northmead, a charming, friendly, clever and multitalented avatar.

Ars was - among many other things - a DJ in SecondLife and founded the Sarco Sound Group with his friend and business partner Sarco Halderman. One of the first DJ´s recruited to the group was Andrey (D R E Y) Messmer. Ars and Andrey developed a close non-romantic-friendship, with much love and trust between them.

Shortly before Ars and I met there may - or may not - have been a brief sexual relationship between Ars and Guyke Lundqvist (I am not altogether sure about this and have never really worried about it). Anyway, by the time I appeared on the scene the relationship between the two had evolved into a relationship between a father and son. When I teamed up with Ars I also became Guyke´s evil-stepfather.

Ars and I became a couple, shortly thereafter Andrey and Guyke became a couple also, this was however before we had established the family. When Andrey´s and Guyke´s relationship ended, Andrey became Ars brother. Both Andrey and Guyke went on to form new romantic relationships that were included into the family.

When Guyke became partnered with Haakon Meads, his elected mother Starry Sweetwater and her husband Sir Trifle became in-laws. Similarly I become the uncle of Skip Turbo´s adopted son Liam when Skip and Andrey were partners.

Ars also formed brotherly ties with Dej Mycron and Jeb Nicholls, while Martial Eisenhart and I and Millimina Salamander and I also elected each other as siblings, well in the last case I more or less forced it on the poor girl. Martial formed a partnership with Elorian Scarbridge for a while through which Elorian and I became brother in-laws. Dej has of course also had partners, but I did not much like the last one so I am not mentioning him (I am invoking my literary license on this).

Postscript
I am happy that I took the time to make the family chart, because looking at it clarify some things that have been a mystery to me earlier.

As I understand it, these kind of chosen family clusters are supposedly more common among the gay population in SecondLife than among the straight population. An explanation to this could of course be that many gays already have experienced the concept of "choosing your family" in their first life due to the shunning and ostracizing that still occurs in all cultures, albeit to a lesser extent nowadays that 15-20 years ago.

I have no sure information on how common it can be among lesbians, either in first life or SecondLife. As we all know lesbians seem to provoke less animosity in the straight culture, possibly because the women are better at staying "under the radar" than gay men. The fact that straight men find women "playing with each other" so fascinating at least while they wait for him - the macho male - to arrive. I am also certain that part of the explanation is due to the unequal status of women in society, "what women do does not matter".

If heterosexuals ever think about homosexuals, there seems to be a strong tendency to focus on the sexual activities rather than on the feelings and attractions. I did not choose to become gay to engage in fellatio or have anal intercourse. I am gay and therefore use the sexual activities and techniques available to me to give and receive pleasure from another man - and hell yes, I damn well love it!.

My Busy Saturday

In hindsight it was a great Saturday evening and Sunday morning, even with all my crashes and the strange weekend shit happening. So what was it I did, lets see if I can recall it all...?

First I went to look at some new hair to party in. My brother in-law D R E Y (a.k.a BIL) had dropped a landmark on me last we spoke. It was a beautiful shop with some great hair, I will look up the name when I get back in SecondLife and add it here. B-something that rhymes with barley if I remember correctly...Aah got it! Burley (SLurl) was the name! (No picture yet!)

With my new hair down I went back home to pack a gift for Eddi Haskell for his fifth rezday. What does one give to a man who has been around forever and probably has everything he ever wanted to have? 

Well I think I finally found a good gift when I decided to give him one of the beautiful jars made by Second Renoir, the Swedish first and second life artist. I love those jars, and have almost all of them myself.

While I was gift wrapping the jar I talked a little with my in-house (or on-sim) brother in-law Dejerrity. It is always good to check in with him. he makes me feel warm, safe and happy.

Happy with having the gift decided and packed I dropped in at Mid´s Super Fride Party with DJ Gwenni. The set looked really true to the original, but after a while it got to be a bit too overwhelming and it was quite difficult to make out the other avatars among everything that was going on there.

Super Fride

While i was listening to the great selection of music played for us by the amazing DJ Gwenni, who was a new acquaintance for me, I got a surprise call from my darling brother Martial.Eisenhart, who had been missing for awhile. It was so good talking with him again! As always we talked about everything between heaven and earth and all at the same time. His mind works nearly as mine, but he is a sweeter, kinder and much less judgmental version of myself. 

When Martial had dozed off I got the call that Eddi´s party at Tadd's Cabaret had started, so I quickly changed into something stylish to fit in with the crowd at one of Eddi´s parties. (Black suit with a black t-shirt showing off my chest hair.) The place was full when I got there and filled up even more while I was there. 

Somewhere in between this I got the chance to stand up for my dear friend Zigadena Gabardini, who was - for no rational reason at all - being clobbered at by the extraterrestrial hag from InWorldz in the comments on another blog.

I found a safe spot close to the hunky host Scott and started flirting wildly with him, although I don´t think he noticed much. The only man that ever understood when I was flirting was my Ars. He told me once, that I should drop all the subtleties because people are so busy with everything else going on. To which I answered, "Do you  suggest I tell them in local chat that we should leave and go fuck?". He laughed when I promptly sent him an IM saying exactly that. But what the hell, all my flirting is only for fun still, I have no intentions whatsoever of following up on them, perhaps the guys sense that somehow.

While I was busy with that, lo and behold, I suddenly saw my name called in local chat. It was my buddy, the studly Ziggy Starsmith that had arrived to the party. He looked grey, sultry and sexy as all the others at the party, except for the hunky Scott. 

I tried all my tricks to get the world to rez, pulling down draw distance and changing the group tag, but nothing worked. And then SecondLife kicked me out.

When I tried to log back in I almost made it three times but was kicked out again with the message "The system has logged you out because you are trying to log in from another location"? Interesting message and it was the first time ever I got it - after five years in SecondLife. I don´t understand what it means though.

Finally I gave up going back to the party and went back home instead, which worked fine. Soon after I got back on I got an IM from Ziggy asking if he could come over for a visit and take a look at Southern Charm. I was absolutely delighted to invite him over.

Ziggy came over and looked excellent this time. I gave him the grand tour of the sim - both the house and the grounds - and we had a good time talking about ourselves and our lives (both of them). After about an hour Ziggy´s new man, Holter, logged in when he got home from work in first life and was called over. At that point my darn computer and SecondLife started screwing with me again and kicked me out and started giving me the same strange messages when I attempted to log in again.

When I at last succeeded to get inworld again it was 7 am in my first life and I was starting to fall asleep over my key board so I had to make my excuses soon afterwards to go to bed and catch some sleep..

My Brother Is Back

Yesterday as I was - as usual on Sunday mornings (SLT) - dancing, chatting and having a splendid time at Elfays´s Coffee and Pajamas Show I got a very surprising IM from Martial, my dear brother who was lost to real life some time ago.

We talked in IM a while and all feelings and wonderful memories were stirred up again. I cannot help myself but Martial always hits a certain spot in my heart. Although I wanted to remain restrained, guarded, distant (whatever may be the correct word) and a bit sulky (yes, I actually want to do that sometimes - roll me in tar and cover me in feathers) I couldn't stop the feelings of strong love that just welled up inside me.

Certain people I just cannot help loving, however I try to hide it, block it or stop it, Martial is definitely one of them.

In real life it is exactly the same. I have more than a few ex-boyfriends I still love, no matter how ferocious or ugly the breakup may have been.

P.S. Yes, I do realize that this post may well cause some people to call me "pillertrillare" (an ugly Swedish word for "drug addict") due to my present use of  prescribed antidepressants, but they don´t have a clue so they can jump in any lake of their own choice. 

I must repeat that my main reasons for writing this blog is for my own benefit and those who care to read it.

What Makes A Good DJ?

Bock looking at Ars

I have spent most of my second life hanging around with - and surrounded by - some of the best DJ´s in SecondLife; Ars, Andrey, Sarco, Harley, Martial, Yannis, Zno and the rest of the Sarco Sound (link not active) crew and many of their DJ friends.

Over the last year I have mainly stayed in the Swedish clubs in SecondLife and there are some good DJ´s here too, the first names that pop up in my head are Frost, Lucien and sirhc, at Erotes I enjoy the music of Butch Diavolo and Arc - but I am not making a list so if you don´t find your name here don´t be sad.

My Ars used to say "Everyone thinks they are a DJ in SecondLife" by which he meant that playing records isn't all there is to it. Now first listen to what a real DJ can do, just lean back and enjoy. This remix was made by DJ Markus Schulz.



I found this summary on What Makes A Good Club DJ? by ElGringoSalsero;

Each year, DJ Magazine publishes its list of the top 100 DJ's based upon public votes. I would consider the top ten identified DJ's to be reliable experts on what it takes to be a good DJ. Here's what they have to say on the subject: 

#1 Armin Van Buuren - "Timing and character."
#2 Tiësto - "A great DJ can adjust to the crowd, make them go crazy but still be able to do his own thing."
#3 David Guetta - "A great crowd."
#4 Above & Beyond - "Good taste in music, an open mind and experience."
#5 Paul Van Dyk - "The confidence of knowing what your own sound is. And not being a snobby ass and playing for yourself."
#6 Deadmau5 - "Their taste in music. It's a little bit of technical know-how, but 90% of it is the music you play."
#7 Ferry Corsten - "Knowing how to entertain the crowd. You're not there to educate. You should present new music without forcing it down people's throats." 
#8 Markus Schulz - "Unique style and understanding of the momentum in the room."
#9 Gareth Emery - "Knowing the crowd is a fundamental requirement and looking like you're enjoying it."
#10 Sander Van Doorn - "A lot of interaction with the crowd. Playing a set is about educating on one hand, but also playing music that the people are there for."

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My own two cents on this subject, from my perspective as part of the crowd:
1. Be prepared, for Gods sake plan your set! Adapt the music you choose to the event that is planned and the crowd you expect to be there. Always make sure you have enough music to go overtime if something should happen that requires it and enough to adapt your set if it should be needed.
2. Be aware of the crowd and work with it (it´s not a wanking session after all). Being arrogant and snotty is a definite no-no, you are there to entertain not to be a condescending s.o.b. This also means do not badmouth any other DJ´s, words spread.
3. By all means take requests if you wish to do so. It isn't necessary to play the requests straight away. play it later if it fits better there and if it doesn't fit tell them.
4. If you don´t have charisma or a personality don´t bother!
5. Most important of all be true to yourself; If you don´t like the music, don´t play it!

The technical stuff can all be learned as you go along.

Stupid Git #5

As you may have read here earlier I started building quite late in SecondLife.

Most likely this was a result of being surrounded by many awesome builders and creators in my close SecondLife family, Ars, Guyke, Haakon and Martial were/are all amazing builders. Whatever I needed they could build or create for me and it would look better than if I tried making it myself. 

When I finally felt the urge to start, it was sometime between my second and third years in SecondLife, my efforts were met with great support from the immediate family (especially from Ars). I have heard from others that he was very happy that I had started to build and kept boasting about my builds.

One of my first builds/creations/designs was of course "The Party Hat" which was soon followed by the renowned "The Jesters Hat". The worldwide success of the Jesters Hat among the hardcore fashionistas in-world was the of course the foundation of my own label "BMcM" and the BMcM Corporation.

At about this time I started going to the building and design classes for beginners that were held in SecondSweden by Ironside Carlberg and my dear friend Kay Uggla, after which I started creating the most amazing lines of clothing.

I am sure you all remember my wonderful line of candle-sticks. I think I may have burdened everyones Inventory with these on every possible occasion. (If you have deleted them please do not tell me, because I love to think they are still safe there.)

Moving along, when Ars passed away I lost my inspiration for the longest while. About six weeks ago I started to fiddle with building again. But something was very wrong! I couldn't build/create/design in my usual smooth style and manner. The viewer just wasn't cooperating. Everytime I tried to change a shape of something using the Edit-menu I heard an echoing "Thud" that drove me to the brink of desperation.

I naturally first blamed the viewer and ranted about the poor quality of the Phoenix. I uninstalled it completely - yes in all the folders on my computer - about 15 times, reinstalled it again being careful not to change anything in the build settings to no avail at all. My problems kept reoccurring.

I complained my misery to everyone who had the patience to listen, had my settings gone through about 5 times by the patient Vampi. Nothing helped.

Late yesterday I think I solved the problem when I suddenly realized I was writing in a "dot" in the Edit-menu where the viewer wanted a "comma". The shapes started changing nicely and according to my intentions.

So I now declare to the world that The Much Honored Bock McMillan, laird of Southern Charm, and CEO of the BMcM Corporation is a stupid git!

(...and the last is especially true when I later the same day discovered that I had not really found the problem ... )

Changes

It´s time to face the facts. My SecondLife family collapsed when Ars passed away or maybe even before.

By my own choice I still keep an adopted sister, even if I am not really sure that Millimina likes the idea - but she never protested too much so I´ll keep her there for now at least.

My son Guyke was always more Ars son - I got him as a package deal and sort of adopted him. With Ars gone I must accept that the "family tie" is no longer there even if he is a true, loving and caring very good friend. I will love him as family always but I set him free!

With Guyke gone as family, his partner Janttu, who was my son in-law, also leaves my family tree to become a good friend instead.

My brother Martial left SecondLife without a word of goodbye or any explanation long before my Ars got sick. He then came back a few months ago, only to leave again soon after. He left the second time also without any goodbyes or explanations, despite his repeated promises to me he would never, ever, do that again. His future status is unclear.

Andrey, who was the brother of Ars and hence became my brother in-law, told me in a conversation a few weeks ago that he felt estranged from SecondLife and was only going to be in-world when he had his DJ-sets or his partner could be expected to be in-world. For family-ties to exist in a virtual world they have to be by choice on both sides. I will always love him but I set him free also!

With Andrey gone I also lose Liam as a nephew. Well actually I think I really lost him a long time ago, he was never heard from after I sent him the message that Ars had passed away, I guess death was not a part of "his game".

My two other brother in-laws Dejerrity and Jeb, were really friends of Ars and not mine. They have always been sweet and kind to me and I will always love them for the support they gave me when Ars passed away. I set them free too!

What, Me Worry?

Sometimes I think it´s just me, other times I think it´s everyone else.

I didn´t really realize I was a worrier until Ars told me so. When he did I protested vehemently and told him I was no such thing. I told him, "I do what I want to do and say what I want to say and to hell with anyone who tries to stop me."

"Sure", he said, "that´s just it. You don´t worry about yourself, but you worry about everyone and everything else. Look at how you fuss about Guyke and his love life. He is a man, he can take care off himself and when he cannot he will come to us if he needs it.He knows where to find us. And then look how you think and talk about Martial and Andrey after they dropped out of SecondLife. People leave SecondLife for many reasons, babe. They don´t always have to be run over by buses or killed in Brazilian street-fights not to log in and say good bye to you before they leave. They just leave and don´t look back - at-least not for a while."


My response was, "But Ars we loved them, they told us they loved us and we knew them for a long time, is it wrong of me to wonder why they leave with no word of goodbye?" Ars answered, "No babe, that´s why I love you, you care about other people and me and our son, But you really don´t have to carry it that far. Look at Haakon, he left us after saying goodbye and all, still you worry about him. What he´s doing or if he has friends taking care of him. Just drop it, he is a grown man also and can take care of himself, I am sure."

I dunno why I worry for other people sometimes, but Ars was right there, I do do that,.whenever I think people are being mistreated. or wronged or just disrespected.

Hell I cannot save the world but I can look out for the people that are close to me or react and take action at aggression or bullying I see going on in front of me or around me. It´s the only way I know how to deal with such things.

But yes, I should heed Ars advice and not worry about things I cannot do anything about and also let grown people take responsibilty for their own choices and actions. Perhaps that should be my new years resolution, good thing I have a few days to think about it...

Well something good came out of my worrying. Ars told his sisters his I am a worrier and therefore instructed them to tell me everything that was going on, because otherwise I would just worry about it. I am grateful to him and love him for it. if his sisters hadn´t been so forthcoming with information I really would have gone completely berserk those last few weeks and days before Ars passed away.

Martial is back

 

"Patterns in the Palouse" by Gary Hamburgh

I logged on late yesterday - it must have been after 11:30 pm my time - to catch a bit of DJ Butch Diavolo´s set at Club Erotes/The Den, before going on to listen to my brother-in-law DJ Andrey at the Week-End Club in Boystown.

When I had arrived at Erotes and had said my hello´s I took a look at my friendslist just to check who was online. And then I got a big shock that brought tears of both joy, surprise and anger to my eyes. I am not really sure what I would have done if I weren't talking to Andrey at the time, most probably I would have lost it and logged off...

With my heart beating hard I told Andrey, "Guess who is online, my brother Martial..." or something to that effect. My emotions were in a total uproar, I was happy, sad, angry and nervous all at the same time. I couldn´t think straight.

The thing is you see, my darling, beloved and crazy brother Martial suddenly dropped out of Second Life late in the summer of 2009 (if I remember correctly). I was at a total loss to what had happened to him and was imagining all sorts of awful fates that could have befallen him, like being hit by a bus or murdered by a crazy one-night stand or something equally horrendous.

Ars was as usual good to me then, he calmed me down and told me there were loads of other alternatives for something like this to happen, things that were perfectly reasonable and that did not entail Martial being dead or lying helpless in a coma. After a long while I decided to believe Ars, still hoping that Martial was going to show up again someday. And indeed, now the day had come.

The next thing I told Andrey was, "Well, I am not going to talk to him...". I don´t know what made me say that, but as always Andrey knows me extremely well. He contacted Martial anyway, and told him to talk to me. I will always be grateful to Andrey for that, because of course I did want to talk to Martial, and I also needed to talk with him.

So when I got Martials first IM I felt like my heart would burst with the love I had always had for him, and all the things I wanted to ask him, all the things I needed to tell him about all the awful things that had happened while he was away and how happy, so very happy, I was that he was back again.

We talked tentatively for awhile but I told him from the start that I was too tired to go into details this first time. We must do that at a later time. I just wanted to know if he was doing OK and if he was going to be back in SL again after tonight. He told me yes on both questions, and I felt the relief flushing over me. I told him I was happy he was well and so very happy he was back and that we would talk it through at another time, because the shock and joy of seeing him online and talking with him was quite enough for the.moment.

Before we ended the conversation he thanked me for talking to him, and I told him he was one lucky s-o-b because I really wanted to strangle him. To which he of course answered, "I know". Smartass! He knew I didn´t mean it and that his comment would make me laugh. That was so good, because with the laughter I felt some of my anguish and anger go away. Martial always could make me laugh.

I am so happy you are back in SL with me Martial!

Forever Young

I dag vaknade jag med den här låten i huvudet, sedan har den fortsatt att spela i mitt huvud resten av dagen.

Det finns ett tydligt minne i mitt SL-liv förknippat med sången. Det är firandet av min Ars tvåårsrezzdag. Vi bodde redan då på Southern Charm och för att fira dagen bjöd vi in alla vi tyckte om.

Jag, min bror Martial Eisenhart (som sedermera har lämnat SL) och Ars son Guyke ägnade en hel vecka åt att tillsammans ställa iordning festplatsen och ordna med resten. Min Ars var under tiden förbjuden att komma till hemmasimen.

sarcophilus Halderman, då en vän till familjen, hade trots att han är australiensare och således tvingades stiga upp sex på morgonen, lovat att stå för musiken. Han fick spela vad han ville - han är ju en duktig DJ - men hade en enda tydlig instruktion. "Forever Young" med Alphaville skulle ingå eftersom det var temat för festen.

sarco satte naturligtvis ihop ett underbart set och "Forever Young" spelades i två versioner, både Alphavilles version och en version med ett australiensiskt band som heter Youth Group. Festen blev mycket lyckad och min Ars hade trevligt. Det var en lycklig dag!



Sådär ja, nu hoppas jag att låten lämnar mitt huvud och går vidare till era istället! (Jag älskar den här videon. Ungarna gör inga extrema tricks, de har bara kul.)

Nakna avatarer i SL 85

Min älskade lillasyster Millimina Salamander är en djärv och stilmedveten fashionista med säker och avancerad smak. Hon är också en fantastisk vän.

På bilden ser ni Millimina endast iförd min kreation "The Jesters Hat".

"Millimina nude in The Jesters hat (model colourful rhinestone)"

Jag började bygga sent i Second Life, jag var mer än två år gammal. Detta berodde möjligen på det faktum att jag var omgiven av en fantastisk samling duktiga och talangfulla byggare i min SL-familj eller nära vänkrets. Min bortgångne partner Ars byggde allt möjligt men särskilt möbler, belysningsarmaturer och träd), vår son Guyke bygger köksutensilier, belysningsarmaturer och mycket mera, min bror Martial Eisenhart skapade växter och blommor, särskilt hans orkidéer är fantastiska) och vår nära vän Haakon Meads som byggde allt, allt och särskilt allt möjligt).

De uppmuntrade mig alla att börja bygga, men jag kände väl att mina resultat aldrig skulle bli lika vackra som deras att jag inte ens vågade börja. Till slut förlorade jag dock denna rädsla och gav mig i kast med byggande med friskt mod. Min talang för att ibland fullkomligt kunna strunta i vad alla andra tycker kom här till sin rätt, och aldrig mer så än när jag byggde "The Jesters Hat". Många skrattade rått åt mig och den men både Ars och Millimina sade sig vara lika förtjusta i den som jag själv (och det älskade jag dem båda ännu mer för).

Ett tag sålde jag hatten på Xstreet med följande försäljningsslogan: "The Jesters Hat - only for the most daring fashionistas". Till min egen förtjusning sålde jag faktiskt tio (10) stycken till det facila priset av 10 L$.

Hatten finns i ett 50-tal versioner i alla upptänkliga färger och tygsorter, de två senaste tillkomna varianterna är "Mondrian" och "Nationaldagen", som båda har synts på en del bloggar för inte så länge sedan. Utöver Jesters Hat har jag även tillverkat "The Party Hat" i ett 20-tal nationella varianter. Mot slutet av 2009 hade jag gett mig på att skapa underbara ljusstakar, särskilt populär blev min folkloristiska ljusstake i tre varianter. (Nåja populär är kanske för mycket sagt men åtminstone sade de som fick den att de blev förtjusta. Men folk har alltid varit alldeles för vänliga mot mig så jag vet inte säkert.)

Jadå, ni är fortfarande välkomna att skicka era bidrag till mig antingen inworld eller till min mejl lundamats@gmail.com  

Yes, you are still welcome to send your contributions to me either inworld or to my mail lundamats@gmail.com