Road To Nowhere

Vladimir Konovalov Photography © 2008

"Road To Nowhere" - Talking Heads
Lyrics by David Byrne, Tina Weymouth, Chris Franz & Jerry Harrison

Well we know where we're goin'
But we don't know where we've been
And we know what we're knowin'
But we can't say what we've seen
And we're not little children
And we know what we want
And the future is certain
Give us time to work it out

We're on a road to nowhere
Come on inside
Takin' that ride to nowhere
We'll take that ride

I'm feelin' okay this mornin'
And you know,
We're on the road to paradise
Here we go, here we go

Maybe you wonder where you are
I don't care
Here is where time is on our side
Take you there...take you there

We're on a road to nowhere
We're on a road to nowhere
We're on a road to nowhere

There's a city in my mind
Come along and take that ride
and it's all right, baby, it's all right

And it's very far away
But it's growing day by day
And it's all right, baby, it's all right

They can tell you what to do
But they'll make a fool of you
And it's all right, baby, it's all right
We're on a road to nowhere

Burning Bridges

Photography by Tim Barber

Well life sort of sucks right now, and I really brought it on through my own actions. I now feel like the man on the amazing picture above by Tim Barber, caught on a bridge and trying to escape the fire.

Ever since my Ars died (there I finally wrote that horrid four-letter word) I have enveloped myself in a cocoon of safety that the Swedish community in SecondLife has kindly offered me. The only places outside of that "safe haven" - which have offered me the sense of safety that I required - have been Elfay Pinkdot´s show at The Circe´s Sunset Jazz Club and Chade Dagger´s club The Den together with Strum Diesel´s and Bara Jonson´s gigs have been the limits of my SecondLife world outside of my home sim.

Recent events and ghosts from the past have forced me to understand that this cannot go on any longer. I must widen my world in SecondLife again, either that or leave it. And I do not wish to leave so there only remains one real alternative for me.

There will of course still be places in the Swedish community that will always feel like a second home to me, places like OrmDricka to mention only one. So I will not burn any bridges, but I will start asking myself and many people on my friends list if we actually still are friends or if we ever have been.

SecondLife is huge and wonderful and has so much more to offer, but I hope to run across some of you out there!

Pajamas Day

I just didn't feel like wearing anything except pajamas today, either in real life or SecondLife!

This is me dancing at OrmDricka where the theme tonight was "90´s formal", oh well...

Update on the Missing Son

 I heard from my son today!

Of course it was my mess-up. Guyke - as the considerate and dutiful son that he is - had already told me some things were coming up in his real life.

I am fortunate to be surrounded by a very patient, loving and understanding family.

Really I never imagined I would say this but here goes; Guyke is actually as patient with me as Ars used to be! 

Second Pride Fundraiser Today, 10 AM - 2 PM

Location: Hyde Park at the London sim

Join me there and let´s have some fun man-watching!

To Guyke

Oh Guyke (pronounced "gheee-ka" and rhymes with the Spanish word "chica"), just send me an e-mail to let me know you are doing OK (just click the link below).

Send an email to Bock now!

I need an e-mail from you at least once a week in the future as long as you don´t come in-world. It´s enough to say "I am alive" in the subject line. (You know how I worry.)

Considerations

1. Do I really want to change to a black background like all the other fashionable blogs or do I stick with my colored background?

2. What do I do with the blogs of friends and family that haven´t bothered to update for more than 2 months?

3 a. Should I include blogs that I sometimes read but don´t recommend in the lists of blogs I follow?
3 b. Should I include blogs that don´t bother to link to me?
3 c. Should I include blogs that send me some traffic but I cannot read myself (http://scandinavien.blogspot.com/).

4. What the hell made my follower #40 leave me - and who the f**k was it?

5. Should I only focus on SecondLife here or do I continue to mix it up with real life?

6. What´s the problem with "Sitemeter" that Vanadis was hinting at on her blog the other day? Should I keep it or drop it?

Being human isn't easy...