Why?

"Why"

How many times do I have to try to tell you
That I'm sorry for the things I've done
But when I start to try to tell you
That's when you have to tell me
Hey... this kind of trouble's only just begun
I tell myself too many times
Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut
That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words
That keep on falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth
Tell me...
Why
Why

I may be mad
I may be blind
I may be viciously unkind
But I can still read what you're thinking
And I've heard is said too many times
That you'd be better off
Besides...
Why can't you see this boat is sinking
(this boat is sinking this boat is sinking)
Let's go down to the water's edge
And we can cast away those doubts
Some things are better left unsaid
But they still turn me inside out
Turning inside out turning inside out
Tell me...
Why
Tell me...
Why

This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead
This is the joy that's seldom spread
These are the tears...
The tears we shed
This is the fear
This is the dread
These are the contents of my head
And these are the years that we have spent
And this is what they represent
And this is how I feel
Do you know how I feel?
'cause i don't think you know how I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
You don't know what I fee

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I am feeling tired and low today, so I went to bed after work and slept until 10 PM local time. I'm still tired, but have to make preparations for the flushing of the sewer pipes that the landlord has ordered for my building tomorrow. There is also a visit in the morning to my Hungarian doctor to take some tests before my visit with him next week. And then I am going to Stockholm on Thursday over the day, it still looks like it will be a very windy flight that I am not particularly looking forward to.

When I just opened my e-mail there was an offline message to me from in-world, with the lyrics of this song. I am confused and tired and don't really know how to interpret it. I may have unintentionally hurt someone. Life sucks. All I can say is that I usually don't have any intention of hurting anyone's feelings, especially not the people I love and have declared my love to repeatedly.