Early Notice

My eyesight is getting worse almost by the day. Since childhood I have only really had one functional eye. Although my left eye looks normal and moves around as it should, I have never been able to use it for anything other than peripheral vision (I can see things coming at me from the left). No visual aids can correct it.

My right eye is hyperopic (farsighted) with astigmatism and I have used glasses or lenses since I was three. Until about two years ago I could see very well with correctional aids, but I started having problems reading smaller text, like text-messages, on my cellphone. As this problem accelerated I went to my optician and told him I thought I needed a new prescription, but after the examination I was told that my eyesight hadn't changed much from the previous examination. Anyhow I ended up with a new pair of reading glasses after that visit.

Then I started noticing that things got blurry and doubled. If I was looking at something I saw sort of a shadow image slightly off which blurred the whole image. A visit to the eye-doctor, I was diagnosed with having cataracts but the silly woman told me it was too early to operate even if I tried to convince her of my unfortunate situation. 

Two months ago a nearsighted colleague at work had laser surgery done on his eyes, he came back to work a few days later with perfect vision. He suggested I should make an appointment with that place and get a check-up there to see if they could help. Two weeks after this my 83 y.o. mother had both her eyes operated on (at the same time), her sight is now nearly perfect also. 

I must be able to read and write easily, as those and my devious brain are the tools of my trade. There is also the possibility .that my drivers licence could be recalled as I may no longer fulfill the requirements set. It doesn't help me at all to get an operation later in life, I need it now to be able to work properly.

So a few weeks ago I went to the clinic where I after a full and extensive examination was told that they could help me if my left eye had not been in such a poor condition. As the situation was they refused to perform any operation on my right eye. They however referred me to a specialist on eye surgery for a second opinion. A short while afterwards I had an appointment for an examination with a possible operation on Monday June 17th.

So on the first morning of my upcoming vacation I am hoping to get operated on. If the surgeon seems to hesitate I am going to bargain, argue, plead, beg and possibly even threaten him to make him perform the operation.   As the main - but minute - risk with the operation is the possibility of infection I am also going to tell him I can come to the clinic as often as he wishes for them to keep that risk at bay.

Although both my colleague and my mother noticed immediate improvements, I am not sure what to expect for myself, so I wanted to inform you not to worry if there are no posts for a couple of days.

Good News for the It Gets Better Project in SecondLife

My friend Petr Vanbeeck has posted some good news on his blog today about the "It Gets Better" project in SecondLife.

As some of you may remember I reported about it as one of the high-points of Second Pride last year in my post: It Gets Better in SecondLife.

Read all about the great news on Petr's blog Confessions of a Digital Daddy Bear: It Gets Better Project. In the post Petr also seems to say that he is accepting new additions (see Doc Spad's new addition in the illustration to this post), so those of you who are creative enough and have something good to say should start thinking.

Big Brother Is Watching Us

If our Big Brothers in the United States National Security Agency (NSA) is watching us there is really only one thing to do.

Photography by Hudson Wright

MOON THE NOSY BASTARDS! 

Thank you Edward Snowden for informing us about this, you are my hero! 

Just like Daniel Ellsberg and Bradley Manning before you, you have brought the public's attention to the wrongdoings of the powers that be and their henchmen.

We always need heroes in our midst who, when they feel that something is utterly wrong, have the courage to act and to do the morally right thing. I hope that I will have the same courage if and when I find myself in that position.

P.S. If anyone is wondering if the ass above is mine I must coyly admit that it is NOT. Mine is a bit hairier and even more beautiful.

Relaxing

I was lazy today, so I stayed at home and sat in my meadow for a while listening to the birds chirping and chatting with Butch, Guyke and Dej.

They were all doing well. Butch was busy with getting a new DJ-program to replace his unreliable SAM. Guyke was brooding over the intricacies of sailing in SecondLife and Dej, who had had a fun night with little sleep, was even more tired than I and for better reasons.

How Could I Forget?

A few months before I rezzed into SecondLife in March of 2007 I had broken off a three year long affair with a married man in first life.

I have never seen it as my responsibility to decide or influence how other people lead their lives or how they handle their other relationships, neither do I wish to pass any moral judgement on their attitude towards extramarital affairs. The only person whos actions I can judge and wish to influence are my own. In my own relationships I have not accepted anything except total commitment, trust and loyalty. Infidelity is never an option.

The first life affair left me totally drained of all self-respect and confidence in myself. Of course I accept that a person who is involved with someone and/or has a family must give them the highest priority, that goes without saying. However, even with that knowledge it doesn't mean that I must be the one they have their fling with.

It took a lot of time and effort on Ars' part to rebuild me from what I had become during that affair. I cannot understand how I suddenly forgot the lesson learned and was prepared to throw it all away just because of my sexual desperation.

Today I sent a message to the man I have been chatting and planning a date with on a Swedish cruising site, that I am no longer interested in meeting him for a sexual encounter but that I would like to continue our friendship.

Iono Captures SaveMe

When I watch this machinima I understand what straight men see when they look at women. My profound respect and gratitude goes to Iono Allen for this exceptional piece of art.

I would like to add that my former client Ms. SaveMe Oh has never looked more beautiful, even if she is always stunning!

Funny Coincidences

Yesterday my buddy NE0 Timeless posted a response to my recent post about my problems with insomnia. In his post he suggested a wonderful piece of interesting, soothing and relaxing music that I should listen to whenever I had problems sleeping.

The music was Thomas Dolby's song N.E.O. which I am sending you to NE0's blog to listen to, Free Your Mind: A song dedicated to Bock McMillan.

While I was listening to the song I focused on the photography of a meteor that is displayed throughout the video. Suddenly I saw a vague outline of my own face on parts of the meteor, which was rather amusing.

The next funny thing that happened was that when I was going to comment on the post and thank him, I got the following word verification.

Thank you so much for the caring suggestion buddy, I will try it the next time I cannot sleep!