I didn´t really realize I was a worrier until Ars told me so. When he did I protested vehemently and told him I was no such thing. I told him, "I do what I want to do and say what I want to say and to hell with anyone who tries to stop me."
"Sure", he said, "that´s just it. You don´t worry about yourself, but you worry about everyone and everything else. Look at how you fuss about Guyke and his love life. He is a man, he can take care off himself and when he cannot he will come to us if he needs it.He knows where to find us. And then look how you think and talk about Martial and Andrey after they dropped out of SecondLife. People leave SecondLife for many reasons, babe. They don´t always have to be run over by buses or killed in Brazilian street-fights not to log in and say good bye to you before they leave. They just leave and don´t look back - at-least not for a while."
My response was, "But Ars we loved them, they told us they loved us and we knew them for a long time, is it wrong of me to wonder why they leave with no word of goodbye?" Ars answered, "No babe, that´s why I love you, you care about other people and me and our son, But you really don´t have to carry it that far. Look at Haakon, he left us after saying goodbye and all, still you worry about him. What he´s doing or if he has friends taking care of him. Just drop it, he is a grown man also and can take care of himself, I am sure."
I dunno why I worry for other people sometimes, but Ars was right there, I do do that,.whenever I think people are being mistreated. or wronged or just disrespected.
Hell I cannot save the world but I can look out for the people that are close to me or react and take action at aggression or bullying I see going on in front of me or around me. It´s the only way I know how to deal with such things.
But yes, I should heed Ars advice and not worry about things I cannot do anything about and also let grown people take responsibilty for their own choices and actions. Perhaps that should be my new years resolution, good thing I have a few days to think about it...Well something good came out of my worrying. Ars told his sisters his I am a worrier and therefore instructed them to tell me everything that was going on, because otherwise I would just worry about it. I am grateful to him and love him for it. if his sisters hadn´t been so forthcoming with information I really would have gone completely berserk those last few weeks and days before Ars passed away.
