Open Landscapes

Sorry for that bout of groveling in selfpity and passive aggressiveness. I am back on track again, but will most likely leave the earlier post there as a reminder to myself!

Anyway, it always help to listen to Ulf Lundell. This song always gets voted into first place when Swedes are asked to suggest a new national anthem.



I feel best in open landscapes
by Ulf Lundell (translated by Bock McMillan)

I feel best in open landscapes, close to the sea I want to live
A few months trough out the year, so I can get peace within
I feel best in open landscapes, where winds are blowing full
Where the larks fly free up to the sky, and singing wonderful
There I make my own aquavit, and flavor it with St. John´s Wort
And drink it with pleasure, with herring and homemade bread
I feel best in open landscapes, close to sea I want to live.


I feel best in peace and freedom, for both body and soul
No one comes too close to me, and shutting in and steal
I feel best when day is breaking, where fields are filled with light
When cocks crow far away, when it´s far to the closest house
But still so close, that one quiet silent night
When you're sitting under the stars, you can still hear the laughter
I feel best in peace and freedom, for both body and soul


I feel best when the sea is swelling, and gulls are crying high
When the beach is filled with seashells, with the oceans sound inside
When the clear and the simple, can exist the way it wants
Where yes is yes, and no is no, and doubt is lying low
Then I tie a ring of leafs, and lay it on the closest rock
Where runes were cut for our sake, once so long ago
I feel best when the sea is swelling, and the gulls are crying high


I feel best in open landscapes, close to the sea I want to live

I will probably regret this post

....so read it while it´s up here!

I warned you before, this blog is mainly for myself! It´s a sort of exercise in selfhelp or - if you will - even masturbation to cover the fact that my loneliness since Ars passing is becoming more and more apparent to me.

After I wrote the post "Ma che bella serata", I went to take a nap, AGAIN, I never ever used to take naps before! In my sleep, I had the strangest dream of myself running around in a frenzy between places and dragging people after me...

When I woke up I was struck with the realization that that is exactly what I am doing in my secondlife also. I have these THINGS I MUST DO. All these events I usually go to where people have been accustomed to my presence and therefore great me in kind and familiar way.

This makes me feel safe and loved and wanted for the moment, it gives me temporary gratification.

Then the second realization struck me! All these places I go to - however kindly I am welcomed and taken care of - are all open to the public. It is really nothing personal about it at all, even if people sometimes tell me that I have been missed on this or that event.

It´s all really about me, running around seeking company in which I feel safe and trying to find safety and closeness amongst the kindness of strangers. I actually haven´t gotten a personal invitation to go anywhere at all since Ars passed away.

..oh by the way I can tell you already, any personal invitation for the next two weeks will be turned down flatly.
Shutting down the computer now, and going out for smokes!

P.S. My thanks to those who left comments here. I decided not to publish any of them, as I take them as personal messages!

P.P.S I Changed my mind

Ma Che Bella Serata

Ohhhhhhhhh what a wonderful evening anf night I had yesterday...

It started off with the 200th anniversary of "The Coffee & Pajamas Jazz Show with Elfay Pinkdot" at the beautiful "Circe´s Sunset Jazz Club". Elfay was inspired, the guests were intoxicated by her charming chat and the awesome music. If you missed it you really need to revise your priorities!

We actually started planning for the 300th show celebration in 2012, when someone said that that was the year the world would end according to some prophecy. Let me tell you now - if that propecy should be true - I know no better place to meet that end it than in the company of my darling Millimina, Elfay, Circe and listening to jazz!

After a brief nap - I am a bit tired these days, not really sure why - I loged in to a swimsuit party at Fride´s Beach. The music there was funkilicious and supplied by a great DJ melqt (pronounced Mel-Cutie I learned) Tennenbaum. As always at Mid´s parties, people were pleasant and all possibilities of drama dealt with in a charming way. Alas I was too tired to remember to take any pictures, but let me tell you two of the Apmels where there!

The youngest one is starting to look great - he may have started to work out - give him a few years and hearts will be broken left and right...

Picture stolen from Apmels blog "Min avatar heter Apmel"

From there I moved along to the party at Club Erotes - The Den the wonderful aussie club and one of the friendliest clubs in Second Life. DJ Butch Diavalo entranced us all. I had managed to drag the sweet Adrina Welders out of her shoe-shop and after some convincing hauled Millimina over there too. The guys were all so funny and chatty I forgot to take pictures again..

My great evening ended at "The Week-End Club" where my darling BIL ("brother-in-law") DJ Andrey Messmer entertained some of the hunkiest guys in SL, with the help of his friend and host Ciroc.

This time I remembered to take pictures again, would you believe it... Look at my BIL after his recent makeover, isn´t he a perfect specimen of an edible hunk?

Det finns...

OK I am posting this song a second time! The reason is not only that I love it or that I love Mauro Scocco. This song by Mauro always give me hope and joy and I have a friend that needs that now, as he also has a friend that needs it even more!





There is...
by Mauro Scocco (awfully translated to English by Bock)


There is a hole in the sky where the sun beats through
There are fish in the sea but there is never anyone who sees them
There are people in the houses with a longing for something else
But in the middle of their lives it seems everything just stopped
There are voices missing that were never heard
One doesn´t want to be in the their way, one doesn´t want to disturb
There are men in suits that have grown too large
Applaud those who win, kill those who lose with silence


There is God and religions, or you could buy a crystal,
if you think it can warm you when the wind blows cold
There is everything you could want, they smile at you from the TV
Also you can become a winner, any bum or Count


There is, (there is) in an ideal world
There is, (there is) everything your heart could ask for
There is, (there is) if you can stretch out
It is there, help yourself, before it all runs out


There are kings and presidents who divide the planet
While people stay silent, we have stolen their words
There are ideologies, we see them fall apart
Politicians against the wall who only stand and stutter
There are wonderful places, high mountains and wild rivers
Where the sky is your sister and the cloud is your brother
There are always black pages in each person's book
What is different between the crazy and the one we call clever?
There is a tear in every laugh, there is a sadness in each joy


And in the Milky Way lanes is heard a quiet murmur
There is everything you could want, they smile at you from the TV
You can also become a winner, any bum or Count


There is, (there is) in an ideal world
There is, (there is) everything your heart could ask for
There is, (there is) if you can stretch out
It is there, help yourself, before it all runs out


There is, (there is) in an ideal world
There is, (there is) everything your heart could ask for
There is, (there is) if you can stretch out
It is there, help yourself, before it all runs out

Nakna avatarer i SL 105

I was so pleased when my friend Apmel Goosson decided to send me this picture of the latest addition to the worldfamous - and highly prolific - "Second Life"-family "The Apmels of Solace Island"!

Ladies and gentlemen it is an honour to introduce you all to, the lovely and beautiful Miss Robotlina Slingshot.

Jadå, ni är fortfarande välkomna att skicka era bidrag till mig antingen inworld eller till min mejl lundamats@gmail.com

Yes, you are still welcome to send your contributions to me either inworld or to my mail lundamats@gmail.com

Desktop mascots

There is a relay race going on among the Swedish SL-bloggers, "Show us your desktop mascot". Well I don´t really have a desktop mascot, but this is always out here so ... I am making it my mascot!

I wasn´t awake earlier it seems (because now I see it everywhere), but I picked up the relay race from Vampi´s OrmDricka

Du är aldrig ensam - Mauro Scocco

You are never alone
by Mauro Scocco (direct translation to english by Bock)

When the storm blows, when the bridges burn
When hope and meaning, just disappear
When you feel small, and when no one is there
You will never be alone anyway, as long as I am here

I can walk all night, take a plane or train
It doesn´t matter where you are
I´ll get there - anyway

You are never alone, as long as I breathe
As long as my heart - can beat
You are never alone, never forget it
I'll do anything for you, I hope that you know
Yes, I hope that you know

If those you trust fail you, if your dream fell apart
Then I can remind you of how much you're worth
That the fear you feel, it is not you
And how scary as it may seem, it will fade away

I can walk all night, take a plane or train
It doesn´t matter where you are
I´ll get there - anyway

You are never alone, as long as I breathe
As long as my heart - can beat
You are never alone, never forget it
I'll do anything for you, I hope that you know
Yes, I hope that you know

So when you no longer cope, then I´ll cope for us both
When you cannot find a way out, I´ll find one anyway
You have given me so much over the years that have passed
The biggest thing one can get, you have given it to me

You are never alone, as long as I breathe
As long as my heart - can beat
You are never alone, never forget it
I'll do anything for you, I hope that you know
Yes, I hope that you know
Yes, I hope that you know

And I know that you know